Jules, an about me

Hello there! I’m Jules, your quirky, energetic boudoir photographer.

I don’t want to make it all about me, because this whole experience is about you, but I do think that knowing a little about the woman behind the camera can help you figure out if I am the right redhead for the job!

I love poetry, and prose, so I’m gonna write this just as if we were having a conversation.

Because that’s how I’m the most me.

and you wanna know a secret. . . I want you to be the most you too!

Long before I became a mother I was self conscious of my body.

Not in the way that every day it consumed my mind, there were times I loved how I looked, and there were times I didn’t. It ebbed and flowed, constantly changing. I realized there were things that played into how I felt.

The amount of tears left on the fitting room floor while trying to find a pair of jeans that fit and I liked on my body could make a garden grow. That lump you get in your throat as you try on that bathing suit that looks so cute on the mannequin but does not do you any favors, is all too familiar. It took years, but I learned the patterns, cuts of dresses and clothing that make me feel much better about myself.

I have curves that are not complimented by an adorable shift dress with no fitted form of any kind, and most bathing suit bottoms are not equipped to handle the juicy booty I was blessed with.

When I became pregnant with our first child, a daughter, I didn’t know how profound an impact she would make on my own self confidence. She’s almost thirteen now, and I will do just about anything to stop those tears from spilling out onto the fitting room floor.

If she doesn’t see how I love myself

she won’t know how important it is.

I never saw myself as a feminist before, but as I’ve grown, I crave my own voice and the power to tell my own story. And I have that in boudoir. My self portraits are a practice at being and feeling who I am, at my core, and a reminder that no one will see who you are if you keep yourself hidden away.

After my third child was born, my body felt destroyed. I was weak and tired and the idea of being sexy when I was wearing Walmart shirts with holes and leaky breast milk sent my confidence in my body far out the window. But I was happy, my children were healthy and I was in the front row for all their beautiful changes.

Over time I came to understand that what I was desiring with my body was a connection. Yes, I wanted to be sexy and be desired by my husband. And I was. His love for me in any way I was shaped was and still is a blessing, but it wasn’t until I truly believed I was sexy and beautiful did I notice my confidence growing. I embraced my sensual side and my desire to find pleasure in all things, and this awakened me and my gratitude for who I am.

One day I asked my husband to come into the studio and help me with some photos. I’d been on a journey to finally lose the weight of baby number three, I felt strong and youthful. The pictures he took are some I look back on and feel quite proud of, not because I was fit but

because they remind me of when I took the time to prioritize myself,

time to see myself and time love.

I started stepping in front of the camera more, even when I didn’t love what the scale said, or how my clothes looked on me. I didn’t let it stop me. Something happened in these self portraits, I saw how beautiful I really was even if with “imperfections”.

Every time I tell myself I’m not skinny enough, wish my stomach was more toned, or I’d probably look better if I just didn’t eat that, all it does is rip the fabric of my being apart. It breaks me.

And not just because I have children watching me, and not just because I know it’s the right thing to do, but I want to be the main reason I believe in myself. Because I’m the one who has to be in these thoughts, this body and this confidence every day.

I want to be a small part of what helps you take time to see more of yourself.

When you step in front of my lens I assume it took you just as much courage, if not more, than it did me and I am going to protect that space with my whole heart.

If ever you needed permission to take up space, let this be a source of that permission. You’ll begin to recognize that you will feel the depth of who you are truly meant to be when you show up for yourself. You’ll feel how powerful being you truly is when you fully embrace yourself, even when there is still work to be done. That is the true beauty of being a work of art, you evolve and it’s the journey that defines you.

I didn’t warn you I’d go all romantic did I? But hey, that’s me!

We often don’t know where something will lead, we just know we don’t want to let it pass us by.

Thanks for reading!

Love,

Jules

Fine Art Boudoir is For Anyone Who Wants to Feel Intimately!